reality bites.

"I am not a "hot" girl. I will probably never turn you on, or take your breath away, or impress your friends with the way I look… but I can make you laugh and make you feel wanted, and sometimes I can be really fucking cute. I really wish that could be enough, just once."

-taken from tumblr.

everything about this quote is true.
sometimes i wish i could go back in time and see where we became so self conscious around the opposite sex and when looking like a blonde, fake baked toothpick became hot. or how a beefed up, hair gelled tool became known as the ideal man.

i have hips. i have thighs. i have meat on my bones.
i'm self conscious. i can be self loathing.
i rarely see myself as beautiful.
i'm never told i'm beautiful.
especially by men.
and i feel this way all because of what men want.
and guys can be the same.
it's so damn sad.
there shouldn't have to be validation from the opposite sex.
ever.
but there is.

when did we get so far from reality?
or is this reality and i'm just a lie?